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a good kind of fat

I am already fat. I am already pudgy in the tummy. The bulge swells from low down.My breasts are still sore. I am still tired, though not obscenely ti... read more

1 months ago 0 comments

And on the Tenth Day,

I bled. My surgeon said my bleeding should taper off, and then stop entirely. Instead, it wasn't ever heavy and now it's coming back in fits and start... read more

5 months ago 2 comments

Do Over

I dreamt I lost the baby. Then I dreamt nobody believed I was carrying a baby, they just thought I was fat. So when I told someone to put their hand o... read more

2 months ago 0 comments

False Hope

And on the fourth day of waiting, the midwife called to tell me that if nothing has happened yet, I will have to have a D&C to remove what is left... read more

6 months ago 0 comments

The Pregnancy This Time

I am six weeks and three days pregnant today. I have two weeks left to wait until the sonogram and I go back and forth between thinking this one will ... read more

2 months ago 0 comments

The Terror and The Smudge

*This is mildly gross for anyone squeamish* Friday night, I found the slightest brown smudge when I went to the bathroom. It took me about 9 seconds t... read more

1 months ago 0 comments

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