a good kind of fat
I am already fat. I am already pudgy in the tummy. The bulge swells from low down.My breasts are still sore. I am still tired, though not obscenely ti... read more
1 months ago
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A Woman Knows
SO many women say they knew they were pregnant well before the first line ever showed up, halllunigenically or not. I used to think these women were l... read more
2 months ago
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And on the Tenth Day,
I bled. My surgeon said my bleeding should taper off, and then stop entirely. Instead, it wasn't ever heavy and now it's coming back in fits and start... read more
5 months ago
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Do Over
I dreamt I lost the baby. Then I dreamt nobody believed I was carrying a baby, they just thought I was fat. So when I told someone to put their hand o... read more
2 months ago
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False Hope
And on the fourth day of waiting, the midwife called to tell me that if nothing has happened yet, I will have to have a D&C to remove what is left... read more
6 months ago
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Goodbye, Fatty!
A friend I hadn't seen for a week pats my stomach."It's growing!'' he said, triumphantly.Um, let's hope this one is for real, otherwise, you just call... read more
1 months ago
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It Takes a Village -- In Reverse
"If I get pregnant after this weekend, it willbe a miracle," I say. "Clearly, I've jinxed it by telling everyone.""Or,'' says someone, "It could be th... read more
3 months ago
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Make Believe
Most of the time, though I've told almost everyone I know about it, I don't really let myself believe that I am pregnant this time. It seems too fragi... read more
2 months ago
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Photo Finish
Dear Baby, One day, almost ten years ago, I put on a bit of pinky lipstick and a silver shirt. Neither was part of my regular rotation. I wasn't going... read more
2 weeks ago
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Scenes from a Marriage
On Friday night, about 5 minutes after I started hyperventilating about my possible miscarriage, my husband asked me:"Have you seen my charger?'' Not ... read more
1 months ago
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