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Redemption
When my father called at 11 a.m. this morning my time, five a.m. his time, my husband still had not. As my husband is travelling to my dad's tonight, ... read more
Aging Alone
In about one hour, I turn 31.For the first time in my life, I will wake up alone on my birthday. I realized that today and I had a bit of a huh, momen... read more
I Speak Woman
When my husband announced to his family last week that we're expecting (he did actually use the term 'we,' which I plan to tease him about until the d... read more
Stealth Attack
I haven't spoken to my mother in a while, for many reasons and all of them my own.So when my phone rang yesterday at work with an unrecognized number,... read more
Scenes from a Marriage
On Friday night, about 5 minutes after I started hyperventilating about my possible miscarriage, my husband asked me:"Have you seen my charger?'' Not ... read more
a good kind of fat
I am already fat. I am already pudgy in the tummy. The bulge swells from low down.My breasts are still sore. I am still tired, though not obscenely ti... read more
The Terror and The Smudge
*This is mildly gross for anyone squeamish* Friday night, I found the slightest brown smudge when I went to the bathroom. It took me about 9 seconds t... read more
Natural Talent
We were planning to swim up a city river--Zurich to be precise. It was a long swim, my friend told me, but there was a pretty strong current and we'd ... read more
Make Believe
Most of the time, though I've told almost everyone I know about it, I don't really let myself believe that I am pregnant this time. It seems too fragi... read more
Another Life
I just spent an hour looking at pitcures of myself from twenty pounds ago. And I realize that six and a half weeks pregnant is not the time to say thi... read more
